I thought I had overcome
these ghosts from the past.
I was battling on as usual
which is nothing new to me.
How long will this bout of
depression last?
It's been a long time since
I felt so bad.
What brought this on,
I do not know.
I feel like I am out of control.
My shoulders are heavy and
my heart is so sad.
I'll have to
shut myself away again.
Not to let others
see this side of me.
Trying hard to focus on
some positives.
But for now
it's only negatives I see.
When I am in this
evil demon's grip.
There is no telling
where I will end up,
as I fall, stumble and slip.
No helping hand to catch me
and stop me from the fall.
Even if there were,
this demon steals from me.
So I retreat and from
your touch recoil.
Unless you have
ever been trapped like this
my friend.
You can never really know
the terror in my soul.
I'm searching to find the answer
that will enable this to end.
So, once again
I can face the world
and feel complete
and whole again.
Don't worry for the
nightmares in the dark.
At least the daylight ends those.
The depression in my mind
consuming my waking hours.
Only those who've experienced
this gripping panic know.
I'm looking at myself
the vice like grip inside.
Who will set me free from this
and how long will be this ride?
I'm on the edge of a precipice
like a see-saw up and down.
Evil pulling on one side
the good on the other.
The hand of fate will now decide
while I hide my face like a clown.
